What's the Cat To Do When the Mouse Is Begging?

"Am I going insane?"

These are the words I scream as I crawl through the waste of this world.

You see, there's a lot about me I never expose. There's a lot I witness, a lot that I take in and I can tell you with complete honesty I hate it all. The way we set ourselves to such a high regard is sickening. We don't deserve this status we've created for ourselves. At all. Everything we've built is so cheap and trite. Worthless and ugly.

"How can you live this way?"

Is what I want to ask you. How can you go on living in this capsule; so self absorbed? I guess I'll never understand.


I never want to understand.

Life lessons

Have you ever felt the crippling effect of rage?

Where at any second your brain is about to burst into a confetti of flesh and blood?

I'm walking on a fine line of wanting to break myself apart and wanting to destroy the world around me.


But no, no I get up, dust myself off, look to the sky, and walk again and again. I fight through the discomfort, the pain, the demons, myself.


For you to water down all the battles I've been through, all the stuff i have built is a complete slap in the face.

It'll be alright though. I have my mind, my strength.

Your Fire Makes It All Worth While

What can I say, I'm still in awe over last nights events even though a few things went wrong.

I could post a long drawn out blog, but I'll let this picture (my fav out of all of them) do the talking.

Hunter the fucking beast Burgan

Check it out!!!

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His name is Teddy!!!!


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A full review will be up on JAB a little later in the day,

Birthday Cakes and Botox

Well, I figured I'd delve deep into the world of personal blogging since I already micro blog on Twitter with useless facts about my day.


Anyway, moving on......

I'm turning the ripe old age of twenty this Thursday and I can honestly say its about damn time, seriously. The teen years were rough. I mean, bad haircuts, horrible girlfriends, the drug thing....who wouldn't want those horrible years to be over? But to be completely honest I'm more relived that I'm heading into the 20-something category having learned all that I have. Honestly, the "glamor" found in partying and getting fucked has lost its luster not that it ever held such an important role other than cementing my strong disdain for my peers. With that said, I however, am not looking forward to loosing my hair and all the wonderful things that take place when getting older. Speaking of, anyone getting me botox for my birthday? I'd fucking love you forever! Not that I actually need it, I would just like to freeze my face into an awkward position and go places.

I should stop here, I'm sure you've had enough of this verbal vomit.